sorry to be MIA

Uh oh. I can't really believe it's been since the 10th since I blogged. Yikes.

In the meantime I am settling into a routine with my pool workouts. My PT is confident that I will still be able to train for the marathon. It'll just be a little different than originally planned. I'm trying to stick pretty close to the training schedule - I just assume a 15 minute mile and then do my "distance" running in the pool. Pool running being its own entire blog!

There is still no word on Biggest Loser casting. I am hoping hoping hoping to know something this week. I saw that they are done watching videos - at least I hope they are!

Anyway, there's not too much to report right now and I'm definitely feeling the end-of-school-year lack of brain cells....

Time for a "Week in Review" :)

I have continued to be angry and disappointed since the results of my xray.

In spite of that I did do another hour in the pool on Tuesday and then yesterday I did an hour in the pool at PT including getting some new exercises, immediately followed by an hour of yoga with Michael. By the time I got home my quads were literally shaking.

This morning I am a little stiff, but it's that good stiff. I haven't had that in a while since I've been "resting" the hip. I like it!

Dave (the PT) is optimistic that I can be in good enough condition to give the marathon a go.

While at yoga last night (which I really, really liked) the instructor asked us to hold a thought in our minds - a focus for our practice - during the class. I worked on forgiving my body for letting me down. I am in a little better place in my mind and heart as a result of that exercise.

This weekend I am at a workshop all day today followed by a massage, so no workout. Tomorrow I am planning on a bike ride - the first of the season!

xray results

So, at the beginning of last week I was at the PT and he mentioned that since my hip had stopped progressing that we should probably do some more diagnostics (e.g. xray and/or MRI). He also wanted to move me over to water based working out.

Friday I worked in the pool for an hour - and felt really good after it! I also had my xray.

Saturday I really felt good so I went over to Dimple Dell and worked in the pool for 90 minutes.

As of this morning, my hip feels better than it did on Thursday. I was feeling pretty smiley and like things were coming along - so I wasn't too worried about what the xray might show.

At the PT today I did my stretches and stuff and then water running for 30 minutes. At the end of my appt Dave and Ben (PT and PT intern) come in to talk to me about the xray. Arthritis. And while there is actually a lot of "good" news in this (e.g. no labral tear, no surgery in my future, treatable, they are still confident that I can get to where to I need to be to complete the marathon) I am finding myself really having a hard time with the diagnosis.

I feel old. I feel frustrated. I feel disappointed. I feel angry. It is the same set of feelings as when I became hypo-thyroid. Ok, it WAS nice to know why I felt so bad and was tired all the time, but it SUCKED to get a life sentence. I think that is the part that I hate the most - this is NEVER going to go away.

Time will pass, this will get better, pool workouts rock, but for today I just need to work on wrapping my head around it.

Thanks for listening. :)